Motorcycles and Ecstasy

I don't pretend to act like I don't know,
It's all part of the plan. People are telling me: Be careful.
I may be wrong or maybe proven right, no matter what I enjoyed the complication.
Don't bring this up, don't ask what I want. Just show up to this two way street.
This is my game, all your moves are safe moves.
Different players. same game. Checkmate.

Mina

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Comfortable VS Love

So here is a situation for you:


You been with your significant other between lets say: 6-10 years. You met in high school, did the whole school, work, and keep your relationship awesome bit. OK now lets say that he or she cheated. Now here's my beef: Where is the line between 'comfortable' in a relationship and really deeply in "love"?


I have skeletons in my closet, some that both my ex knew and never knew and I can see how being on the inside, a person can get lost and "try to make it work" but I believe that's when a persons judgement is more clouded and does not see what I see.  


I see a couple whose comfortable, not bringing the best out of each other anymore, not communicating as they used too, putting each other off instead of how it once was. Its despicable how far people would go to make a relationship work. A relationship should bring the best out of both people, and should be evolving as time passes. Like everything in life nothing stands in idle motion, everything is constantly running, jumping, striving, surviving, and most importantly changing and adapting. If deep down your reading this and you feel a chord was struck, make a goddamn change your life. 


I write this as I seen a friend couple of mine get engaged and as I heard how *Lisa's long time boyfriend cheated and she took him back. I am not writing this in jealousy or envy, very much quite the opposite and self-reflection on my own past, and yes I do agree that you never really know what happens between two people no matter how close you are to them. However a picture is worth a thousands words and half of the time you can pretty much sense what is going on.




Mina




Don't Settle 


*Name has been changed

2:30am on my weekend

I can't sleep.

I did absolutely nothing all day with the exception of one class in the afternoon. I got caught up watching Apocalypto, I never seen it and it was good. I actually highly recommend it, I think it would be good to see a Spanish invasion movie like the to the tone of the end of the movie.
So yesterday was 9/14/2011. I'm reaching my full year of being single and of writing here on my blog. I caught myself thinking again.
I have too many issues.
Or do I?!?

To be honest I don't think do. I overanalyze and think and become inept to making decisions. Is it wrong to make sure I take my time before making a choice?
With school just starting and being in my last few weeks with my team at work, I'm ready for change!

My ex and I have slowly started to talk. (No not like that) just talk. Still weird, weird that he texts, weird that he always seemed to have friend problems, weird that it seems that he's just barely realizing that sometimes friends do part ways and you have to drop them.
I don't look back on my actions, and I certainly don't know everything. What I do know is that people will come and go and you sometimes have to adapt to life's curveballs so quit your bitching and moaning and move on.

Currently I am viewing all my options on something and it has me stumped. If you can't decide don't choose any at all
Yet how am I supposed to when I seem to get lost every time we talk. Back to my point..Do I have issues? ( I think not :P) Am I a broken person who needs another broken person? (Maybe when two negatives make a positive) Am I in love? (Ha definitely Not) Am I involved with someone? (dunno) Am I happy despite all my so called issues? (Yes definitely)

I don't know how to end this except with this: Don't rush yourself, be sure you can live with your choices and results.

Mina
*late night blog as I reach my second wind. Il

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Tomato Garden

This particular story was emailed to me by a friend of mine. I read it and it stuck to me. Here it goes and I hope it touches your heart the same way it did to me.

"Tomato Garden"

An old man lived alone in New Jersey .  He wanted to plant his annual  tomato garden, but it was very difficult work as the ground was hard.

His only son, Vincent, who used to help him, was in prison. The old man wrote a letter to his son and described his predicament:

Dear Vincent,
I am feeling pretty sad, because it looks like I won't be able to plant my tomato garden this year. I'm just getting too old to be digging up a garden plot. I know if you were here my troubles would be over..  I know you would be happy to dig the plot for me, like in the old days.
Yours Papa

A few days later he received a letter from his son.

Dear Pop,
Whatever you do don't dig up that garden.  That's where the bodies are buried!
Regards Vinnie

At 4 a.m. the next morning, FBI agents and local police arrived and dug up the entire area –butwithout finding any bodies. They apologized to the old man and left.

That same day the old man received another letter from his son.

Dear Pop,
Go ahead and plant the tomatoes now. That's the best I could do under the circumstances.  

Regards,
Vinnie