A Year Later to the Date

I had just gotten home from work when my dad says
"I have news"
"What?"
"The neighbor whose dog killed Snoopy, their insurance made them get rid of their dogs, they no longer have them. Our neighbor Mike told me today."

A year to the date (tomorrow) when I was at my internship at exactly 8:45pm when I get that text from my dad
"snoopy was in an accident I don't think hes going to make it"

My heart sank, something told me when I saw him in the morning that same day, to hold him and give him hug before I go. I cant explain it. Sure enough when I read it, I knew he was not going to be with us the next day. It makes me sort of melancholy and sad knowing that tomorrow I will be looking at my watch reliving the events of that day. I vividly remember getting home a little after 10 and getting exactly half an hour of sleep before I had to wake up to go to work. It doesn't make me sad to read the blog I post 3 days later Click Here just makes me miss him a bit more.

One year later and we still have not replaced him, sure  we say we are ready for a new dog, but saying and doing are different things, and we still haven't taken the initiative to look.
He now sits in our living room next to his collar and picture. His collar even smells like him. Its pretty cool, but I can smell that it is no longer as strong and will probably over time fad.

My favorite Picture of him.

Oh! His Wittle paws!

Always in my heart, my baby, our family,

-Mina

Post College Week One

It has been about 8 days, since I finally graduated!

It felt unreal til about the actual day of, when we were rushing to leave to the commencement, shit we thought we were going to be late! We all did! I felt excited and did feel the "holy crap am I really here, Pinch me!" But alas Graduation came and went.
Grades were finally posted last Saturday! Now it feels official.
Post-graduation and university life, I feel excited at the possibilities of finally having a worthwhile summer with my best bud. At the same point I feel scared at, not that I have to work (I been working since I was 17) or what I am going to do (I see taking a: see-what-comes-as-it-happens approach is best for me, so I am not scared of that either.) I am merely just taking everything in, questioning who is worth my time, who am I really, and questioning my own beliefs and ways of thinking.
Funny that the stranger I talked too was right about how I am in a sorts of inner struggle with myself. At the moment when he was talking, I had no fucking clue what the fuck he was talking about, but it kinda sorta makes sense now, not entirely mind you, I am merely commenting as I see it unfold myself.

I accomplished what I wanted! I want to fight the world of ignorant people but I feel overwhelmed! There are ignorant people everywhere and it is just now that I realize I alone cannot do this. This article is kinda an eye-opener, depressing, view on life by a crazy psychopath who abuses the system. So screw you man!
 Against Adulthood But still makes you ponder.
The world around me is bigger than I thought, and yet I feel like I know the stranger I am meeting already. (it is hard to really explain what I am trying to say.)
I'll be 25 by years end, and the uncertainty of my life at this point, without having the cushioning of school, is exhilarating and scary. However I am ready to tackle what's next.

Support System (Check!)

Proud Parents(check!)

Self-accomplished (Check!)

Adult (Debatable)

DePaul Graduate, Questioning Life, Adult in Progress...

Mina~

Internship Two Done & Other Current Events!

What a busy weekend!
For those who knew, I worked at Acen 2012 this year as part of my second required internship for school. It is only required by Acen standards that everyone work a minimum of  24 hours. However anyone that also knows me knows that nothing comes easy to me, I had to work 50 hours. 17ish of those 50 I worked pre-event doing: staff training, badge assembly etc etc.  I was fun! I started "work" Thursday at 2pm and my last shift on ended at 3 pm on Sunday. I was only gone for 3 days but it felt like a whole two weeks, it felt weird and familiar working a register again. ( I sorta miss that side of my work life; working a register again and handling money!) However it is finally over, which means my other event Walk for MS Chicago 2012 is coming up, which also means school is almost up! I do have one regret that I had not started volunteering sooner. I was so focused on this-that-myself-others people but never the greater community.  Better late then never I guess!

I love my best friend! We like the same things, act the same way, and even though I've only known her for 4ish months, it feels a whole lot longer! She mah twin! Mah partner in crime! Mah buddy! And it totally feels weird working without her! <3

Awes: Are you kneeling?
Ome: wtf no :P

My BFF: Good things come to those who wait!

In other news:

The Offspring's new album will finally be out this summer! They are going on tour over the summer and while I hope they come to the States, since they are doing mostly other countries. They seem to have a trend of doing a tour in the states one year and the next year outside the US. So while I have hope they do some dates in the US they will next year!
Carlos recently sent me a link to one of the new songs that the new album has and I could not stop laughing, smiling, and seriously I had flashbacks to the Offspring from late 90's to early 00's.  It has such a feel of many of the songs they played during that time! (It reminds me of "Walla Walla, Why Don't You Get a Job?, Americana, One Fine Day, Don't Pick It Up, Original Prankster, Pretty Fly (For A White Guy), Hit That" Omgosh so many. I love the song! Its the old Offspring! They also re-did Dirty Magic so I can't wait for the album! They also released "Days Gone By" from their new album titled "Days Gone By."

Enjoy I am in Bliss playing the waiting game!
-Mina "Omes"

Leap Of Faith > Suicidal Jump

I may be crazy and have just as many issues as Mr. Big.

Perfect Storm? No, but a chance to rebuild. and renew.

But I wouldn't want to fix it with anyone else. 

Maybe its the uncertainty I'm addicted too,

or sheer force he has, or maybe me simply being naive, 

But

There is a thread of truth and logic to this madness.

-Mina 

Emotional Cutter does not equal distress!

I don't feel like this is it! Everyone around me is already finished, happy and content, going out in the wee hours of the night, getting married, and having kids!
A part of me does envy those who have these items, and gloat about it, but what I am really feeling is just discontentment with my own life, that I am not necessarily happy and jumping for joy at my own life. Don't get me wrong! I am not depressed! I repeat, I am not depressed! I just find a hard time finding something to be happy about, just when I think I have found something or am content, something changes and shifts, either by my own mind or external forces, that cause me to question what is. It by no means mean that I am locked away in my room sleeping the day away! I enjoy, at this moment, hanging out with my sisters and family, hanging out with my best friend Sam, and looking forward to the summer!
One of my special qualities is that I am able to force something to the back of the inner dungeons of my mind, never thinking of it again, and because of it, it's like it never happened. A very useful quality indeed or  a ticking bomb that will one day detonate and I feel sorry for the poor soul who shall feel my wrath. (or maybe not! Maybe my bomb is dud.)
I can also adapt to my surroundings, to what the situation calls for, to what people expect, and to what I believe I should be. Deep down in what is Maria, I am a happy, friendly content individual who makes friends easily and wants nothing more than to be happy with a vast network of support, colleagues, and friends. At work, when I first started for example, I struggled to take action and changed myself to what I thought TSA expected me to me (authoritative and more of a police officer taking down an armed suspect). However after much experience on my own without a mentor and trusting people like my supervisor and close friends, I evolved and became to what I am now. I don't trust anyone, but I talk to passengers and colleagues alike with respect and lead with whatever the situation needs VS an iron fist or leading people from behind a wall....

Let's get down to the biscuits and gravy! What is it that you want!?
I'm not sure, at this moment, I just know I am happy and warm in bed as the thoughts of SCHOOL SCHOOL SCHOOL SCHOOL SCHOOL PAPERS PAPERS PAPERS, PROJECTS PROJECTS, AND A PAPER, run back and forth in my head.

as always writing a mess of a blog,
your ticking dud, Mina!

I think all in all, I miss the unconditional love and attention Snoopy gave me. Still miss my dog, 

Draw Something and Tuesdays!

So, I am waiting for my last class of what are to be an endless string of busy busy tiring Tuesdays with two fairly reasonable breaks. Class starts in 15 minutes. I should leave the computer lab and get the strongest energy drink. (hmmm  Monster, 5 Hour, Red bull, or generic brand) I noticed a few people I know in my classes! Hooray for familiar faces! I was reading the powerpoint for my next class and it seems like a fun class, but we shall see. I have 5 classes this quarter (18 credit hours, if anyone is wondering) and for the few that know this is a very important quarter.

:)
Best!!!!

Mina~
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This is "Conan"....yea i said wtf too

This is probably my favorite drawing I've done :)

Mr. Big and Valentine's Day

Yesterday was Valentine's day! Not Singles Awareness Day, not Capone's great gangster massacre, but Valentine's day. <3

I been talking to this guy for about 7-8 months, we met somewhere between June/July of last year. We have since our original outing and various hair pulling mind fucks later, have-on-our-own-accord, evolved to what we stand to as today. Not an official couple, but someone that I do care about deeply and vice verse. We have a mutual understanding and higher level of putting wants and needs in an order that best suits us.
In other words, we don't need a title on us because we trust each other, we don't need to step out every weekend unless we both need a "time away from our own respectable insane life."

Mr. Big=My Lion

I would describe him as a Lion, always interested in something, eager to protect his own as well as his clan, and a fierce temper you do not want to mess with.  I would describe myself as a Sloth, determination very high, when I put my mind to want something I try my gosh darn hardest to get it, always seem to be sleepy (haha), is able to climb very high and not come down for anything.  It would seem like a very odd match, a Lion and a Sloth, but whatever we got going on works for us. As long as my Lion is happy, I am happy.

Me=His best gosh darn hugger ever!

-Mina

For the record, I been calling him Mr. Big for a while because I learned it is best to keep things private, just for us, and no need to include anyone else. Plus when we first started stepping out, he had the same emotional availability as the infamous Mr. Big from Sex and the City, rough, caring yet veryyyyyyy reserved. We both come a long way and I wouldn't trade my Lion for anything.