Knee Deep in your Own Filth

So I'm not sure where I stand, we're cool, we talk at work when we kinda have too. Other then that there's not much going on outside.

However, after talking to someone outside of my situation he put it clear: if you don't text me, or call me don't be surprised if I won't be there. Simple yes I know but when your knee deep in your own mess you panic and ignore everyone around you.

He's not a bad person, he's just so difficult and prolly selfish which should be a red flag to me. oh well, as long as all expectations are met and nothing more is wanted whatever. I'm not going to let myself fall harder, Ill just hang out.

I am talking to someone else tho. Lol
He seems really nice and friendly but what holds me back is that we're kinda different. Different can be a good thing I know but idk why I'm holding back.
Why am I holding back?!

I'm thinking of doing nothing, doing nothing seems right at this situation.
However: I am a mess, I am still an emotional mess. I thought I was ready for anything that should come my way but when I think bout it: I'm bigger mess than I thought and not ready for anything.

Has anyone had complicated friendship, relationships, and anything in between?

Mina

P.s. Buy new earphones.. .. ..
Sent from my iPhone

Holes, Ants and Reasoning

I'm digging myself a hole...
To see how far it goes.

I should be worried about how the hell am I going to get out..
But I'm not..I am worried but the only logical direction here is down.

Maybe it will resolve itself, maybe I will find myself in China or Australia,
or better yet discover the mythical hiding place of fairies who will take me in as a guest and gladly make all my hard choices and problems go away.

Then again I think I'm just making a mountain out of a stupid ant hill.

Mina

Whats going on?!?!

Two Blogs?!
What am I thinking? I ran into this cool new site via CitySwarm, a cool site that creates all different kinds of events here in Chicago. I haven't had the time to go to any of there events though :(
Day two out of three days off went well today~

I just ended my internship on Monday and mannnnn..What a long ass summer! I got two weeks of only Tsa and no school or internship and it feels nice..it felt OVERWHELMING at first I was like wtf am I to do~ but It's me I'll find something to do.

I think this is my most "messy" blog ever..I guess having two blog sites is kinda weird. I'll prolly separate the two and talk about different stuff idk still new and I'm {semi} back!

Anyways, I don't over think so don't over analyze my junk yo!
-Mina~

My Short Weekend at Wizard World Chicago! (Comic Con!)





Was Fantastic!  I was only able to go for 2 days, Thursday being first day and Friday. Normally I wouldn't have gone and just hold out if it wasn't for Christopher Lloyd! Yes I am a big Lloyd fan and Back To The Future Fan.

I bought the VIP  Christopher Lloyd pass and with it I got an autograph, a photo-op, and a special VIP ID. He was there for Comic con for Friday and Saturday and what blew me outta the water was the fact that the Delorean was going to be there! Unfortunately due to lack of information by their part, The Delorean was going to be brought in on SATURDAY. So my heart shall continue to have that void of every seeing it in person.. On a lighter note my bff Julio went all four days and MISSED the photo op with Mr Lloyd and the Delorean like a weenie and told me the delorean was a replica.

I took so many pictures of so many people in their cosplay and fell in love with soooo many things. :)

I will post up more pics, its just that I am writing this at my internship. This day has been unbelieveably sslowwwww.. Normal arrivals to check in is on average 160. Today:70, and by the time I got here it was at 40. But yes alas the summer is winding down fast so, HOORAH!

My Comic Con Pics



It does slightly bother me that if you look closely, he wrote "Marie"... smh* lol man. but some guy who only wanted to say hi was in front and he got nothing signed, distracted him, but I'll take it! It's signed and I LOVE it <3

Photo of me and Christopher Lloyd <3 ahhmmm :)



This picture was taken by my other BFF Gar-bear, we did both first days at Comic con and it was great! On the first day we ran into the "We <3 nerdy girls" and I gravititaed to the Super Ninentendo~ I grew up on Super Mario! I played against Gary like 2 games and I of course being the pro I am. :)

 

This is a drawing from a Comic Artist me and Gary met on the first day. He had a little sign that read "Help me get lunch, any drawing for 1$" Me of course loving turtles so much, told him to draw a turtle! He did a great job, he look kinda fat and mean. and like a Super Mario Turtle. lolol

 This is my Friend Gary~

I've known him since my soph/junior year in high school, 

I honestly don't remember when we met. lol. He's in his last term in college! (Hoorah! Congrats!)

 This is Nelson~ 

He also bought the VIP ticket and was the one who told me Mr. Lloyd was going to be there!

I met him when we worked at Pete's Fresh Market together. lol

I had Loads of fun that day and saw sooo much! What is my next adventure?....Who knows!
Mina~







All Leading To This

So all those days of working doubles. All leading to my summer!
Comic Con Chicago!

I'll be going 2 out of the four days and I will be meeting and taking a picture with Mr Christopher Lloyd and the Delorean!
Yes I said the Delorean.
Best part of all, I'll be going with two of my best friends!

"Roads?! Where we're going, we don't need roads."
Mina!

Songs That Make My Heart Dance.

Sum 41- Pieces

Damn.. This is one of those deep slow songs that for some reason resonate soo hard. The melody, the words are so in tune that it's an amazing song; The played a free show at Bourbon Street Like 2-3 months ago, had the chance to go but no fui.

I tried to be perfect
It just wasn’t worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It’s hard to believe me
It never gets easyI guess I knew that all along

If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I’m trying to let you know

That I’m better off on my own

Tempah-Written In The Stars

This song caught my attention as i was switching CDs in the car. The pre-chorus piano notes is what got me bc it's Soooo alike to the beginning piano tunes of House MD. So i was like whaaa.. Nonetheless; it's an amazing song that captures my heart and makes it dance in heartbreak and emotion. 

Written in the stars, a million miles away
A message to the main ohhh
Season come and go but i will never change
And I'm way

Matchbook Romance-Surrender

This song came on a mix CD, my bf at the time was into punk music and introduced me to this band. Since then(give or take 4-5 years) the song has been idly waiting for me to rediscover it and sure enough the song and lyrics are soo aligned with eachother. Every lyric is perfectly matched with the right pitch, drop, and guitar lick.

these are my dreams, these are my beliefs
i want to trade them in for something real
and just let it go, let it go

don't waste your breath
save your tears for somebody who believes
i can't help myself, let alone you
i'm tired of making love to a memoryI give up, I give up 

Papa Roach- Last Resort

This song is from the early 2000 I believe and I'm pretty sure you the reader know the song. This song is a good reliever, when you blast it on loud and either let yourself get lost or head bang and punch walls. 

 I never realized, I was spread too thin

Till it was too late and I was empty within
Hungry feeding on chaos and living in sin
Downward spiral, where do I begin

It all started when I lost my mother
No love for myself and no love for another
Searching to find a love upon a higher level
Finding nothing but questions and devils

Offspring-Self-Esteem

What more can I say about this band. They are my muse, my first loves, and in my opinion one of the greatest bands ever. I love how this song starts; la la la la la..I think I love their early stuff more than their later music which is not to say I dnt love it any less. 

Now I'll relate this little bit
That happens more than I'd like to admit
Late at night she knocks on my door
She's drunk again and looking to score
Oh I know I should say no but
It's kind of hard when she's ready to go
I may be dumb, but I'm not a dweeb
I'm just a sucker with no self esteem

That is all for now, 

-Mina