Knee Deep in your Own Filth

So I'm not sure where I stand, we're cool, we talk at work when we kinda have too. Other then that there's not much going on outside.

However, after talking to someone outside of my situation he put it clear: if you don't text me, or call me don't be surprised if I won't be there. Simple yes I know but when your knee deep in your own mess you panic and ignore everyone around you.

He's not a bad person, he's just so difficult and prolly selfish which should be a red flag to me. oh well, as long as all expectations are met and nothing more is wanted whatever. I'm not going to let myself fall harder, Ill just hang out.

I am talking to someone else tho. Lol
He seems really nice and friendly but what holds me back is that we're kinda different. Different can be a good thing I know but idk why I'm holding back.
Why am I holding back?!

I'm thinking of doing nothing, doing nothing seems right at this situation.
However: I am a mess, I am still an emotional mess. I thought I was ready for anything that should come my way but when I think bout it: I'm bigger mess than I thought and not ready for anything.

Has anyone had complicated friendship, relationships, and anything in between?

Mina

P.s. Buy new earphones.. .. ..
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